A New Way of Life
Making the decision to get clean and sober is scary, especially if you’re not familiar with twelve-step programs. Prior to entering treatment, I had no idea what to expect. I knew from movies and television shows, admitting you have a problem is part of the first step, and there are “meetings”, but I had no idea what any of that meant. It took me two weeks in treatment to realize the blue book I had been given, said Alcoholics Anonymous right on the cover. It was like being dropped into a foreign culture with its own language.
Learning to navigate this new way of life was painful, but I eventually found comfort in the meetings and hearing other people’s stories; it helped me realize I was not alone. As I warmed up to meetings and the people, I started to want to attend them more frequently. It soon became integral to my routine; the more I attended, the more I wanted to go to meetings. Particularly so on hard days or after a disagreement at home; the meetings eased my discomfort and returned me to peace. The longer I stayed clean, the better I felt. The need to drink and drug diminished more every day. As I neared my first anniversary sober, which sometimes falls on Thanksgiving, I felt tremendous gratitude for the life I had begun living. Years later, I am still grateful, and I still attend several meetings every week.